Haven’t given advice in soo long.
lately ive been really missing you. i dont know why. i shouldnt. im supposed to hate you. but i cant. i care too much, still. but i can only watch from the sidelines and wonder what goes through your mind and how you’re doing….which ive heard isnt too great. you’ve been in my thoughts more recently im not sure why. you no longer haunt my dreams like you did every night for a good 3 or 4 months. theres so many things id like to say, but i dont think i would be able to explain them. and seeing how things are now, i dont think you’d want to talk to me, and im still queasy around you. too many memories. so all i can say is sorry, something you hated but i truly mean.
